#41 : 4-13-9

 

Finitude of Being

10 years later.

She feel so drained of life energy.

She lacks motivation to work, dream or love.

She views self-care as pointless.

She feels like she is living by the quotes "died at 30 but were buried at 70".

She constantly anticipating deception.

She adhere to limiting beliefs, such as equating happiness with wealth;

Or job success requiring connections.

She leaves behind the busy town and back to resigned state, making it difficult for anyone to engage with her.

The internet says that she might be at risk for health issues, including multiple sclerosis.

Well, well.

Good thing that she expected her 30's to be bad.

She just did not expect it to be this bad.

But nothing is new.

She is so used to the pain.