#70 : grandeur

 

August was surprisingly has been good for me. Almost perfect I must say. I have been flying back and forth from Sin City and Dead City this month and my upcoming flight is on Sept 3rd. Graduated even though my college still managed to fuck me up (I was supposed to get special award but they "forgot" to sent out a letter), lost weight and people noticed it. August fly way too fast. And next week I'm going to an EDM music festival. 

I still miss certain people from my past but it's better if I don't reach out to them. I'll let myself to feel the pain as I am so used to it. I can only daydream about it. Anyways I ended up going to a fair last week. It was nice. Some dude tried to hit me and I guess I still look good and young at age 30? Lmao.

I have big plan for next year but for now I won't move a step cuz it's my enemy year. Any move will eventually set me to failure. So, 2026 is not too far. Hoping for the best.

I'm currently sick, I hope it'll go away by this weekend cuz I need to be healthy.

#69 : 4 good days

 

"What flavor should I get?"
"Are we getting ice cream?"

"Do you have a pencil sharpener?"
"What are we coloring?"

"Pass me a lighter."
"Whose birthday is it?"

What an innocent child I wish I still was.

#68 : ?

Hello ghosties.

I'm back.

Last week I was busy with my graduation from my shitty college and useless certification.

I've graduated.

I'm done with shitty people from that place.

What now?

Honestly idk.

My manager called me early this morning.

The company kinda needed me to go to a fair.

But I don't feel like going or mingle with people who doesn't appreciates me.

So I won't be going.

I'm back to my dead city and somehow I feel safe here.

The thought of taking my own life still pass thru my mind.

I'm not suicidal but somehow that kind of thoughts comforts me.

Just updating lmao.

XO